“She remembered who she was and the game changed.” ― Lalah Delia

My aunt used to tell me if you just keep living change is going to come. Three years ago my best friend, the man I married died. It was very unexpected. I came home and there he was, GONE! It crushed me in ways that I can't even express. If you knew us you knew married we were a train wreck, but as friends we were one another's support, encouragement and safe place. We said it many times that we probably never should have gotten married, but we were both committed to seeing our relationship through to the end so quitting wasn't an option. The man he was saved my life over 20 years ago. His friendship and love carried me through some of the most devastating and tumultuous times of my life. He was what we needed, Or at least I thought he was!

Over the past 20 years I have lost many people very close to me-people who helped shape me and who were in my eyes my rock, my hiding place, my comfort, my home! My mother, my friend, my aunts, my cousin, these were all people who I felt kept me grounded. But, as I sit here today preparing for a wonderful evening with my family I began to think on these individuals and how important they were to my life, and then I realized they were not the source of my strength. They were not my rocks. They were gifts given to me by my AMAZING Heavenly Father. He sent these amazing individuals to me to keep ever before me that He always present with me. My pastor teaches us that we all a part of God and if we do not manifest the part that we are in the earth then there is a part of God people will never experience.

Everything we need to succeed in life is already present inside us. We have people who come into our lives who pull greatness out of us. There are people who come into our lives and they carry us through the tough times. There are people that come into our lives to guide us. However all these beautiful people are are simply manifesting in your life the part of God they are! The portion of the Father they manifest shines the light on your path and helps you discover the greatness that lives on the inside of you!

God in me is the hope of glory, but God out of me is glory. My loved ones who are no longer present in body with me left me with their portion of glory. Now all that they imparted and shared with me is merging with what God placed within me. This is what is beginning to burst out of me!

I look at my children and grandchildren and I am amazed-

this is what my heart looks like! The same is true of my Heavenly Father, when He looks at me, at us, He sees what His heart looks like!

I end today with this , Father my desire is that when you look at me you see your heart in the earth. Those you sent to me showed me your love-your heart for me. Today and for the rest of my life I choose to show your heart-the part I carry to my world. This prayer is a result of my journey.

I am a child of God and I am His heart in the earth! This is who I am and this is who I choose to be!!!!