“It is our wounds that create in us a desire to reach for miracles." Jocelyn Soriano

The old song says "How can you mend a broken heart? How can you stop the rain from falling down? How can you stop the sun from shining? What makes the world go round?" As a Christian there is a knowing on the inside that only God - His Spirit can mend a broken heart but when your heart is broken it is so hard to "Look to the Hills".

This past week my family has lost 2 mighty men of valor and I am left with thoughts of how "THEIR VERY PRESENCE" will be missed by all those that knew them. This morning I found myself alone at home weeping and crying out to God- the mender of our broken hearts- and asking him why so much pain.

I am firmly planted in my faith that God has a purpose for all we go through in this life. So I went seeking His glory in the loss we are experiencing. Here is what I discovered, better said is Here is what Holy Spirit revealed to my heart.

First, He gave me a song of worship. Here is the link. https://www.bing.com/videos/search?view=detail&mid=405BF2B7BBA49E466627405BF2B7BBA49E466627&q=turn+your+eyes+Glorious+church&shtp=GetUrl&shid=8d717004-cdeb-4ce5-b45f-99abadd08ab9&shtk=VHVybiBZb3VyIEV5ZXMg4oCiIFRoZSBHbG9yaW91cyBDaHJpc3QgTGl2ZQ%3D%3D&shdk=UG9wdWxhciBoeW1uIG9uIE5vcmZvbGsgSXNsYW5k&shhk=1s%2BWWM06s0T5s5mq3B6%2BCBmPnnJxgBZ7XGnckTSTqHA%3D&form=VDSHOT&shth=OSH.mPBFFozQjJGOP5pHX7raag

During my weeping, while I played this song I was able to remember not to look at the circumstances surrounding us. I was thankful for this, but my heart still ached so deeply. As I continued to weep and seek the face of God Holy Spirit came with this and I pray that it helps you on your journey of living an Ascended Life.

" Kim, I do not want your worship, I want my worship. I am making you a vessel of MY WORSHIP and not of man's - Breakings come so oil can flow- Kim let Me flow through you! I WILL bring healing and wholeness to this land (our vessels of clay), but I have to break you. I love you daughter, but trust Me. I do not want cocky worship. I do not want vain worship! I WANT TRUE WORSHIP! Kim, get an understanding of worship. They that worship me MUST worship me in Spirit and in TRUTH. So COME and let US worship together! "

I felt a peace come over me and I started my quest to get an understanding of WORSHIP- TRUE WORSHIP!

See, I have grandchildren that have lost their father and now their uncle (God Father) and precious cousin. I choose to take this journey to FIND TRUTH so that I can show them THE WAY.

They are being raised to know their God. To know they are kings in the earth - To know that they have power and authority in the earth. But when the enemy comes in and tries to steal their joy, their peace, their righteousness, LIKE A FLOOD GOD RAISES UP A STANDARD!

I made a decision long ago that as for me and my house we will serve the Lord! When my children and grandchildren look to me they HAVE to see the way to walk out this ascended life. This is where I am today- I WILL GIVE GOD TRUE WORSHIP! I WILL RAISE UP THE STANDARD! Father, YES, LET US WORSHIP TOGETHER!